About the book: year / A middle-aged man in his mistress’s bed dreamed of a new word, to which he is trying to come up with a meaning. In search of the meaning of this word, he scrupulously studies his life, and understands how much His ideas about life have changed since adolescence. Everything happens against the backdrop of a love story and a painful choice of who to be with next. How to live further? Why live on? This book is an attempt to answer what a man thinks about when he makes certain decisions that are important to him..